Today I was at the doctor’s. She was talking about me going inpatient at an eating disorder clinic over Christmas break and I said that I wasn’t skinny or sick enough. “No, you’re really not”, she replied. She went on to say that wasn’t the point, but FUCK. Holy fucking triggering. I was told, by the doctor, that I wasn’t skinny enough to be treated at the eating disorder clinic. Maybe that’s not exactly what she meant, but of course that’s what I took away from it. Not skinny enough. Not sick enough. Never fucking enough.